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Mary Wilson's avatar

Congrats to you on one year of Substack! What a journey of processing your journey and sharing it with us. Grateful to know you and praying for you as you prepare for surgery.

Katie Rouse's avatar

Thank you so much, Mary! I'm really grateful for you & to be reading your story these days as well!

Lisa Cooper Ellison's avatar

Good luck with your surgery, Katie, and good luck deconstructing these illness beliefs. I love what you said about finding a purpose for our illnesses as grief avoidance. We are allowed to grieve, whether we find meaning in our experiences--or not. In fact, if there is meaning, it can only be found after we've grieved, or in the case of something chronic, as we continue to grief.

Katie Rouse's avatar

Thank you! Yes, I couldn't agree more--that meaning can only be found after or even in the midst of grieving, not in pushing it away. Thank you for your always-wise words.

Wendy Kennar's avatar

Katie, I'll be thinking of you and your upcoming surgery. Sending good thoughts your way!

Katie Rouse's avatar

Thank you so much, Wendy! I appreciate your kindness.

Margaret Peters's avatar

We will be praying for you, your surgeon & medical team on July 22, Katie, & beyond, in the recovery phase for optimum results. Thx be to a Holy loving, caring, compassionate Creator who loves you dearly.

Katie Rouse's avatar

Thank you so much for your prayers and support, Margaret. It truly means more than you know. ❤️

Cecily Sailer's avatar

Wishing you a smooth and effective surgery and hope you're feeling much better on the other side!

Katie Rouse's avatar

Thank you so much, Cecily! I really appreciate it. My tarot card for this month (thanks to your wonderful Zoom at the beginning of the year) is the King of Pentacles, which I wrote back then (long before diagnosis & surgery were ever on the table): "You are rooted. Grounded. Firm. Ground into your body for the coming months." Feels appropriate for surgery and recovery.

Cecily Sailer's avatar

I love that! King of Pentacles is such a great ally!